What a read, holy shit. My guy is UNHINGED AS FUCK. At a loss for words. Only thing that can be said is @AzzyNemu
I do hope you actually mean it when you say you have "changed". Not just for your sake, but for the people around you. If you want to show you have changed, start fresh, stop trying to make connections with burnt bridges. Just start over and try not to fuck it up. No scamming, No lying, no gaslighting or manipulation. Just be someone that people enjoy being around. If you can at least get through the rest of your life without being a cunt, then that is the best outcome. Everyone here including me has a very strong negative feeling towards you. We are not the ones you need to convince. Even if you reincarnated as Jesus christ, nobody here will have a changed view. Find a new community, make new friends, lay low and just BE NORMAL. We get it you have disabilities and they cause blah blah blah issue whatever dude. Nobody is faulting you for having disabilites, they are faulting you for being a FULLY GROWN FUCKING MAN and not having learnt coping mechanisms and ways to navigate despite your challenges.
If you are reading this azzy (you 100 percent are) I am only commenting because we had a mutual friend who you hurt and I only JUST NOW found out about this.
TL:DR Azzy if you have changed, prove it. We want to hear NOTHING of you. Anything after your vtuber shit, nothing more. Be a better person, if not for yourself, do it for your wife man. Just stop lying and manipulating people. Go get a referral, a therapist probably is not what you need but a specialist for your issues specifically not blanket poor mental upkeep. GO get help and just vanish. Do all the name change and country moving you say you will and just fade into obscurity. That is the best course for you.